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Here are some photos of Jeremy and me. Our relationship was... complicated. To us, it made sense but whenever we tried to explain it to others - it just didn't make sense. It didn't make sense how we got so close so fast. It didn't make sense that we were that close for a while and not a couple. It didn't make sense that we claimed we weren't an item yet we get married out of no where. I guess nothing made sense because when it was him and me... it was just us. We didn't keep people up to date on us. We were in our own little world. I heard later that he was like that with MANY people. But I don't know his relationship with others (not yet anyway)... but I do know MY relationship with him. He was the only man for me... I can say that. We were so alike yet so different.
When we first met I warned him that I came with a lot of baggage and that I was a complicated gal. He told me, "I'm a big boy... I think I can handle it."
He was such a gentleman. I remember one time I was slightly intoxicated and I went in for a kiss... he refused. He said, "Not like this..." Where I come from... men/boys want one thing from a woman/girl. He NEVER treated me like that. I wasn't used to that.
I was emotional. Barely out of high school, Bi-Polar, freshly in the military, and had a lot to learn. I had mood swings and he wasn't used to THAT I think. Lol. At one point, we began drifting away (or shall I say... I was pushing him away... trying to sabatoge our relationship.) I couldn't understand how or why we became so close so fast and there were no issues. I was waiting for him to do something wrong... and he never did except be messy lol. I took him for granted.
There's so much more to the story that I couldn't possibly explain here and it actually make any kind of sense. Let's put it this way... we were both friends to each other, both in love, both afraid... and we had our ups and downs - many times we felt different emotions for each other at different times. Some times we weren't in sync. Before he left TDY... we made up, told each other how much we loved each other, and he asked me to marry him again "For reals this time..." he said "In front of our family and friends." *Sigh* So much to explain, express, and share about such a short lived relationship.
I added music from Sigur Rós. Their music is in Icelandic. However, I heard that even in that language... a lot of what they sing is complete gibberish (actually now named Vonlenska - "Hopelandic" in English). They just sing with the flow of the music with random words thrown in here and there. Passionate yet no real sentences that anyone would truly understand. I think our relationship was like that. Passionate, intense, real, beautiful, dramatic at times, confusing, yet nothing any other person would ever truly get... the way we got it.
So here are a few photos of Jeremy and Me. More to scan... more to come.
Hanging out in
Getting ready
Jeremy took ca
Hanging out at
Jeremy's favor
Posing outside
Getting ready
Pic by Jeremy.
Saying goodbye
Leaving the ai
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